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Dim the lights and here I go.


Well I would start by introducing a little bit of myself. First and foremost, I am in Electrical and Electronic Engineering and I’m from Kuala Lumpur. And  I was surprisingly born in the states , Chicago ,Illinois where back then my mother was furthering her studies in Southern Illinois University for a couple of years.  I was the only person in the family who was by coincident born there. Well, to tell you frankly most of my family members thought that I was special or I could say that they would be all shocked and surprised to hear that I’m a U.S citizen. But to tell you the truth, painfully I would say they are wrong. Wrong indeed.


I know that most of you would be thinking the same as well starting now, that I had the privileges or the plus point where I would somehow speak like an American, or write unbroken grammar and what not. But yeah I admit that I sometimes had a bit of their accent but little did I know that, it wasn’t good enough for me. I thought I should have more advantages growing up like being a kid that had already fluent in English or a teenager that never misspelled a word. But that would be impossible I know. Like when I was in primary school , some teachers had that expectation from me whereby they would just assume that I would be the best to represent the school for public speaking ,or essay writing competition or other related things and just because ? Yeah you guess it right, because I was born in America. For me that is fairly unfair. Sometimes I even ended up on stage to give a speech about something more than I should.  My question there is, where did the other kids go, seriously? Just to tell you the truth, never did I win any of the competition I entered except one debate tournament.


What I’m trying to say is that, I am not happy with the way things ended up. How I am not that good in speaking the language, how bad my writing is, how people put their expectation and assumption on me. It hurt me a little bit. Plus, I would be lying if I say I never tried to improve myself for better. But with the environment like this, it would let the mind set to think that I am already better and I should be thankful for what I have and for what I am. But I am, I am thankful for what God had given me.


So, by making my steps ahead into the college life, I thought to myself that things can somehow change this time. I would start this all over again where I have to learn to upgrade my English and speak more frequently and not to forget more on the writing. With that, I can somehow at least be not ashamed to admit where my real country is, and proud of myself so far.  I thank God deeply and pray that I would soon achieve my goals in life for the future ahead of me.

And that’s that, just a few part of my life that I wanted to share and hope it can bring any positive impact on anyone who read this.


Turn the lights back on and I’m SITI HAJAR JOHARRY